Friday, February 25, 2005
` 11:44 PM
+Now that your rose is in bloom, a light hits the gloom on the grey+
had the weirdest of dreams last night. haha. it had sth to do with A's results' day (damnit), jingwei, my grandma's house, and the cute guy from A Very Long Engagement. don't ask me what's the link between the four subjects of my dream, cos i myself have no idea. ha.
yes yes, the first m18 movie of my life. HAHA the ticket guy didn't check my IC! does that mean i look old?! YEEESSSS!!!! :)
it's so strange how time passes by so quickly.. especially when you have a job. yes, extremely excruciatingly quickly. sigh sigh sigh..
i'm presently caught up in lotr craze again :D hehe. it's been 2 years, but the posters are still pasted on my cupboard door, i'm still crazy over Legolas, and i'm still going all mad watching the trilogy and the making of it on television. hahaha.
who's dreading results' day, breathe :(
There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea,
You became the light on the dark side of me...
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and,
The light that you shine can be seen...
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
The more I get of you,
The stranger it feels...
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grey...
Sunday, February 20, 2005
` 1:15 PM
+Someday I hope you get the chance to live like you were dying...+
watched Constantine yesterday. it wasn't as nice as i thought it would be, except that the special effects were good, and i SO love the angels' wings, and that it was really funny at some parts, and that Keanu Reeves was hot :D
midnight supper at Geylang rocks! :) i should do that every saturday night. haha. just that my mum'll shoot me. ha.
and yes i've got a new phone. but still. sigh.
Valentine's Day came and went, and i'm happy :) yay.
all that mayhem and madness of my early days in college were re-created when i met up with wyun, ph and kl on friday night :) pics are up!
oh i met shujun at lunch one day! hee exciting :) it was so coincidental! we were talking online about meeting up for dinner some day since we work so near each other, and then we saw each other the very next day! and she said she had the same top i was wearing! haha. and the third coincidental thing? as she put it, "both slackers some more!". hahaha. i love my Ms Slacker to bits :D
you know the song where they mashed up "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" with 2 other songs? i think it rocks :)
Jesse McCartney's so cute!! saw the mtv for "Beautiful Soul" :) didn't know he's so young! haha.
And then
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named fumanchu
and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying
Like tomorrow was a gift
and you got eternity to think about
what'd you do with it
what did you do with it
what did I do with it
what would I do with it... :)
- Tim McGraw
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
` 7:30 PM
++
some ass stole my hp at work. bloody hell. hope he/she chokes on a fishball, gets run down by a car, dies without his/her loved ones beside him/her, and rots in hell.
i SO miss my fat hp now :( my entire phonebook, all my messages, all my photos :(
arsehole.
Sunday, February 13, 2005
` 1:07 AM
+Doesn't that make you shiver, the way things could have gone?+
went crystal jade for dinner with the girls on friday, went crystal jade again for lunch with the family on saturday :) i LOVE crystal jade!!! yay! hahaha.
gambling is a form of family bonding :) at the expense of losing money, that is. ha. all the laughs we have!!
my long break from work's gonna be over soon. SIGH :( like not sian..
this is really cute (from Reader's Digest):
Our 3-year-old daughter is a determined night owl whose demands deprive us of much sleep. Her bathroom trips are particularly disruptive, so I was glad to hear her get up in the wee hours and go to the toilet herself.
To my disappointment, she headed to our room afterwards instead of back to her bed.
"Mummy," she whispered.
I lay still, feigning sleep and hoping she'd give up.
"Mummy," she hissed a little louder.
No response.
"Mum!" she yelled.
I gave up. "What is it?"
"Will it wake you up if i flush the toilet?"
:) haha cute right!!
I think I realized just in time, although my old self was hard to find
You bathe me in your finest wine but I'll never give you mine
'Cos I'm a little bit tired of feeling like I'll be the bad fruit nobody buys
Tell me, did you think we'd all dream the same?
And doesn't that sound familiar? Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could have gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants him even more?
something I do remember to never go that far,
Could you leave me with a scar?
- Missy Higgins' Scar
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
` 3:01 PM
+One last dance to our first song+
just came home from visiting. am SO tired! wanna just plop down on my bed and sleep the freaking hot afternoon away, but relatives just keep streaming in.. sian. hehe today was the first time meeting a very-very-distant cousin who's darn cute! heh. jamie! next year when you go dua lao kim's house you might see him! haha how exciting.
listening to Simple Plan now.. nice!! :D
strangely i didn't feel anything when i received a message from you this morning.. used to get all excited and jittery and all. ha. guess you're 'part of my past' now. heh. up to now i still have no idea why you treat me like a total stranger when we see each other, yet you still care for me by occassionally texting me to ask about my life. kinda weird, ain't it? well. at least you care. haha. friends forever? :)
happy birthday binleeee!!! :D
"One last kiss, one last touch, one last tender moment between us,
one last dance to our first song, while pretending that nothing's wrong... "
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
` 11:05 PM
+Ashes+
Now watch me rise up
and leave all the ashes you made out of me
When you said that we were wrong, life goes on,
just look how long I've agreed
Out of place, like a gem on a coalface
Lost on the right way, it's all the same
'Cause I've had my hopes raised, riding the wrong waves
Scared when you feel safe to start again
Now watch me rise up
and leave all the ashes you made out of me
When you said that we were wrong, life goes on,
look how wrong I could be...
- Embrace
Happy Chinese New Year pple :D
Sunday, February 06, 2005
` 8:34 PM
+"And i realize there's tomorow..."+
i think i was too harsh in my previous post. that's like so not me huh. ha. i'm perfectly fineeee now :) thanks kl!! :D contemplated on deleting the post, but blogs're supposed to be places to vent one's anger, and that was what i was feeling at that moment, so i shall leave it as it is. ha.
sorry ohm for not going to the beach for that long-overdue chat with you :( was too tired to do anything yesterday la. and it was so hot!! don't wanna get sunburnt right before cny. haha. yest i slept till 1pm, ate lunch, then spent the entire afternoon in my bed listening to music and reading. it's been such a long time since i had such quiet time to myself! :)
today was spent with one of my most favourite girls in the world :) i haven't seen sinhui in like 10 years. haha. missed ya SO much! yes, it's Clarke Quay and laughing over primary school autograph books in our next outing dearie :)
went to visit eleen in her bling bling shop! she looked so shock to see me. ha! went Zara but couldn't find ph :( haven't seen you for a long time :(
Finding Neverland was nice :) my heart totally went out to little Peter at the end of the show! that last scene of the movie was my favourite :)
watched mtv Asia Aid last night. the performance by Jay Chou and the joint performance by Simple Plan and Good Charlotte were my fave! for now actually, cos i haven't watched the first hour of the concert. haha.
Tyler Hilton's When It Comes (heard this beautiful song on rickdees!)
I study up my hollow
Piece of wood to follow
A day that doesn't come
To the lucky
And I realize there's tomorrow
But I would rather wallow
In the rain then moods that seem
So pot-lucky
Well I'm cruising El Paseo
In my off-white coup back '65
Or I'm cruisin down my own street
And my hooptie says to me
You better hang on to your bench seat
I'm gonna take you for a ride
And I'll let you know
When it comes, when it comes
I'll let you know
But don't stay up for me
Don't wait up for me
If I'm not home
So I wait for fate to find me
A ball of string unwind me
Uncomfortable as a centerfold
And I realize your behind me
To help and humankind me
To see my songs can be retold
Well I'll be gone tomorrow
Yes I'm on the road tomorrow
So next time that I see you in school
It won't be for too long
And I'll let you know
When it comes, when it comes
I'll let you know
But don't stay up for me
Don't wait up for me
If I'm not home
And I want a leather jacket
But only if I have the time
Well, I'll comb my hair like Elvis
And grab an old Gretch 59
And you'd hardly recognize me if you
Saw me from behind
And I'll let you know
When it comes, when it comes
I'll let you know
And I'll let you know
When it comes
Just when it comes
I'll let you know
But don't stay up for me
Don't wait up for me
If I'm not home
And I'll let you know
I'll let you know
Well I'll let you know
Friday, February 04, 2005
` 7:27 PM
++
sometimes i really wonder if we're close friends or not. aren't friends supposed to share your sorrows and comfort you when you're down? i smsed you to complain and whine about a freakingly shitty day, expecting some comforting words from you to let me know i've got a good friend that cares; but all i got from you was a message telling me how you enjoyed your work today and how some cute guy did sth blah blah blah and all that crap. hey of course i'd be glad to hear how wonderful your life is, how some cute guy is interested in you, and be really happy for you, but not at that time when i was so frustrated with work i was going to explode alright. thank you very much. how insensitive can you get. sometimes i wonder if you're really excited to tell me firsthand about all these stuff, or are you just plain showing off (fyi, i was about to tell you MY story of some guy in my office, but oh forget it, just in case you think i'm showing off, too). i know i'm getting really mean here, but whatever, i'm just plain fking tired of everything. yes, we ARE close friends, we shared so many secrets, had so many laughs, spent so many memorable times together, i'm indeed thankful that i have you as a friend, but hey, i'm sure i was there when you're down, i don't know if YOU were there when i was. anws doubt you'd be reading this (and if you did, i don't think you'd know i'm talking about you). sigh. whatever.
i'm quite sure after maybe an hour or even after 20 minutes, i won't even be mad at you anymore, but right now i'm just SO pissed with you i don't know what to do. i'm sorry :(
wait, why am i saying sorry?!
i'm just plain weird :(
thank goodness there's only one and a half days of work next week. just thinking of all the stuff i need to do on Monday makes me wanna puke. and Lee just HAD to resign during such a busy period. BLEH~ which reminds me, i haven't messaged him to complain yet.
Keep smilin'
Keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me
for sure
that's what friends are for
In good times
And bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for...
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
` 8:41 PM
+Truth is when it's all said and done, guess i'm still in love with you+
work rocked today :) it was big boss's birthday!! (haha the one with the really nice accent :)) there was a huge cake and curry puffs and chicken pies and all. haha and to top it off we lao-ed yu sheng! each dept had a huge plate of yu sheng to lao. haha. hee it was damn fun la :) each of us took turns saying our wish for the new year. haha. and i learnt two new things about our boss! he's 38 and he's from France. haha.
but it was a busy day for me cos Michelle was sent to do other stuff so i was the only one sorting documents. damn stressful!! hope i'll have her back tmr...
tmr is Lee's last day :( sad!! i'll miss his singing, his teasing, and his cheering me up when i'm down :( sigh.
haha i finally saw kl during lunch!! haha. oy no need to shout my name so loudly leh! haha.
i'm so addicted to Dan Brown :) unputdownable!! ha.
anws i chanced upon my chem test-tubes hidden behind some other stuff on the shelf the other day, and i thought of how ohm and i used to take pictures of the nice-coloured solutions and beautiful crystals in our test-tubes during prac lessons whenever joan lim wasn't looking. haha. i think we were the noisiest during chem prac :) sigh. really silly, but it was so fun!! the pictures're still in my phone! hee. man i miss those school days :(
Fantasia's Truth Is (so so sad!!)
Ran into an old friend yesterday
Caught me by surprise when he called my name
He was a familiar face, from a chapter in my past
Talked for awhile, I smiled and then
Said that he was seeing somebody and
Told me this was gonna last
Showing me her photograph
And all the feelings I thought were gone
Came rushing back to me at once
Tried to smile and hide the way I felt
But I was thinking to myself
Truth is I never got over you
Truth is wish I was standing in her shoes
Truth is and when it's all said and done
Guess I'm still in love with you
Truth is I never should have let you go
Truth is and it's killing me cause, now I know
Truth is and when it's all said and done
Guess I'm still in love with you
We reminisced on the way things used to be
Shared a couple laughs, shared some memories
Talked about the things that changed
Some for good and some for bad
Then he said good-bye and he paid for brunch
Promised that we'd always keep in touch
Grabbed my bags and grabbed my furs
Walked away and that was that
And all the feelings I thought were gone
Came rushing back to me at once
Tried to smile and hide the way I felt
But I was thinking to myself
Truth is I never got over you
Truth is wish I was standing in her shoes
Truth is and when it's all said and done
Guess I'm still in love with you
Truth is I never should have let you go
Truth is and it's killing me cuz now I know
Truth is and when it's all said and done
Guess I'm still in love with you
Now the truth is, it hurts
But I know that the fault's mine
Cause I let him go
Tried to get over it, but it's messed up
He's not mine, because I know
Truth is I never got over you
Truth is wish I was standing in her shoes
Truth is and when it's all said and done
Guess I'm still in love with you
Truth is I never should have let you go
Truth is and it's killing me cuz now I know
Truth is and when it's all said and done
Guess I'm still in love with you
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
` 10:10 PM
+Are you following the sound, the sound of your heart beating...+
kl i know i've said this alot of times, but i'm still gonna say it, i'm always here if you need me okie!!! :) i love you (for agreeing to walk to the Esplanade with me)!!! hahaha.
my contract's extended! hurray! actually there's no new contract la, i can remain in this job for as long as i like and i can quit anytime i want, which is not soon, i'm sure about that :) hee.
my bro just received his stethoscope kit! haha pretty exciting :D was fooling around with it and listening to everyone's heartbeat. haha.
ryan cabrera rocks my socks off :)
i miss so many pple all of a sudden! slacker, doubt u'd be reading this, but u're the first on my list i HAVE to meet up!!! i don't know, but i think we've like, drifted? :(
where the heck's daniel ong?! Morning Madness is SO boring without him :(
ok i just realised i've only been blogging on tuesdays, saturdays and sundays. haha.
...Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made...