Friday, December 31, 2004
` 1:08 PM
+Happy new year, but is there anything to celebrate about?+
"If you're at work right now, you're lucky.
If your boss is giving you a hard time, or you've fought with your spouse, or you're not earning enough money, you're lucky.
It didn't just happen to them, it happened to the world... It happened to us."
- from the advert on radio asking for donations for e tsunami victims
sigh :(
and yes, i'm back from two weeks of nice cool weather, cute guys and pretty babes, huge and really sweet doughnuts :), playing with hardened snow and treading on thin ice [yeah literally], cloudless blue skies, SHOPPING :) [Levi's jeans for S$50? i SO dig that :)], singing in our car during long hours on e road, travelling in pitch dark/on icy roads/in really heavy fog [kinda cool actually, being snug and cosy in e car. hee], beautiful sunsets :), traditional American hotdogs, the feeling of being in a totally different world :)
sigh i'm already starting to miss all that.
needs/wants to:
1. upload photos.
2. find a freakin job. or maybe i shall slack around till a job comes finding me. heh. ok ok i SIMPLY don't feel like working la. urg.
3. read finish 'A Man Called Dave' so that i can start on 'Digital Fortress'.
4. sort out stuff i bought for friends! :)
5. watch Ocean's Twelve/Phantom of the Opera/Meet the Fockers. yayy.
6. see benben right now! hahaha kidding.
before all that, shall go have lunch and sleep!! though i slept for like 8 hours on e plane, which is like half of e whole journey. ha.
Thursday, December 16, 2004
` 1:13 AM
+legal to club, drink and drive like, finally :D+
hehe the ben bear is sitting on the table looking at me with his small eyes :D so cute!!! hees thankies lots :) love ya guys so much :) haha and the bottle of rum is also on my table cos i don't know what to do with it. heh.
CONGRATS to silly ohmy huimin for winning the letter-of-the-day!!!! so sweet! gan dong :) thanks loads! though i had to share the birthday song with Someone else. haha kidding!
haha just bought Cleo with sly on the cover :) and kl, there was only ONE copy left because everyone bought the sly version, and NOT because they decided to print lesser copies cos the sly version is not on demand ok! haha.
sinhui: i miss ya loads too girlie! meet up after my trip k!! and you look pretty in your prom dress! hee :)
rux and wen: nah i've stopped growing! haha. and Sentosa clashed with my grandma's bday la. haha. take care!! love ya guys :)
have been reading Dave Pelzer's 'A Child Called "It"' and 'The Lost Boy' and i finally know e truth behind child abuse. sobs. i used to think it wasn't that bad, but reading his real life story made me so sad :( must read!!
it's 12 midnight and i'm eighteen :)
and i'm waiting for my Sweet Secrets' tiramisu cake my mum promised! haha.
i probably won't be blogging tmr cos i'm flying off (Yaysie! after two long years stuck in singapore... GRRR), so see ya guys on new year's eve :) hee.
here's wishing everyone a merry christmas in advance! :) don't miss me! haha.
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking around rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me - Gavin Degraw
Sunday, December 12, 2004
` 4:57 PM
+I think you always knew what you meant to me+
i'm in love with Blue's "Love At First Sight" :) -faints- not what e song is about, but e VOICE :) ooh boy.
ok looks like i'm e only soul around without a job. great. haha.
here's where i wanted to be at... hee yanked form yijia's bloggie :)
i'm starting to get excited about e trip! :) hees. but i'm still kinda sad that my brother's not going. sigh. it's more fun with him around. haha oops i'm really gonna have a hard time if my bro happens to read this. his big head'll be in e clouds!!
next album i'm looking out for: Jay Sean :) but it's not out yet! at least at Sembawang. haha.
yes! uberture.com! hilarious!! haha. that certain Fat Pig ohm, kl and i know about. heh!
hazel's house later! :)
You say farewell.. I say so long.. You say goodbye.. I'll say you're wrong..
Jay Sean's Stolen
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You were my air when I couldn't breathe
I think you always knew what you meant to me
And you were my strength when I was down
And you made me humble when I wouldn't bow
I held on to your promise that you'd be around
Where were you when I was alright
Tell me, did you know I was alright
You left me thinking I'd be alright
Won't you come back to me
It's crazy but I'm falling apart
It's crazy how you're leaving me scarred
It's crazy girl wherever you are
You stole my heart
Stolen
Just like a moment
Stolen
You never owned it
Stolen
You took away my heart
I was feeling lost in my own world
Neglecting your needs and your wants girl
If only we could try again once more
Now it's the same sad story that we all know
How lovers make mistakes watch it all blow
I don't wanna be the one to let it all go, no
Where were you when I was alright
Tell me, did you know I was alright
You left me thinking I'd be alright
Won't you come back to me
It's crazy but I'm falling apart
It's crazy how you're leaving me scarred
It's crazy girl wherever you are
You stole my heart
It's crazy but I'm going insane
Feeling lost, confused and ashamed
It's crazy hope you're feeling my pain
You stole my heart
Stolen
Just like a moment
Stolen
You never owned it
Stolen
You took away my heart
And no man can live without blood running through his veins
And it's hard to remember the summer now here is rain
I don't how much longer that I can wait
It's a thin line between love and hate
It's crazy but I'm falling apart (girl it's crazy)
It's crazy how you're leaving me scarred (leaving me scarred)
It's crazy girl wherever you are (tell me where are you, where are you)
You stole my heart
Its crazy but I'm going insane (going insane)
Feeling lost, confused and ashamed
It's crazy hope you're feeling my pain (are you feeling my, feeling my pain)
You stole my heart
Stolen
Just like a moment
Stolen
You never owned it
Stolen
Girl you took away my heart
Friday, December 10, 2004
` 1:43 PM
+I know they say if you love somebody you should set them free+
sigh miche and jiel and huizhen and han and sher and rux and the rest of e faithians are soaking up the sun at sentosa right now. damn sad. sigh. huizhen called me just now cos she thought i was there. even sadder... sian. hope u guys're enjoying yourselves ya...
Long Beach (again) later for grandma's birthday... maybe black pepper crabs and prawns in garlic sauce can cheer me up a bit?
national treasure yesterday with the family was fun :) Nicholas Cage's sidekick Riley (dunno his real name) brought e most laughs! haha he was hilarious! he was kinda cute too. heh! it was non-stop action from start to finish, and oh yes, i LOVE Sean Bean's british accent :)
my hamster loves cornflakes! awww so cute...
...I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free
But it sure is hard to do
Yeah, it sure is hard to do
And I know they say if they don't come back again
Then it's meant to be
But those words ain't pulling me through
Cos I'm still in love with you...
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
` 11:13 PM
+I can't take the miles, I can't the time until I next see you smile+
just sent aya off at e airport.. take care of yourself k! and come back soon :) will miss ya changee!!
i just realised i can't go to Sentosa with faithians on friday cos i'm celebrating my grandma's birthday. sad.. can we have another gathering soon?!?! :(
yay i'm finally half-way done with packing my room :) shall continue with e left-hand side drawers and my wardrobe tmr! haha.
all of a sudden so many things are happening around me and right now all i wanna do is to snuggle in my bed with a good friend on e line and some Dan Brown :( it's really strange cos there's so much stuff coming up that's worth looking forward to, but i just don't feel happy. sigh.
on a lighter note, i finally saw eleen in her shoulder-pad formal wear complete with makeup today! no la don't worry you don't look 20 :)
you look 30!! HEH! joking! haha :D
kl!! there's NO resemblance at all!! unless u're talking about e woman at e extreme left of e picture! HUMPH! haha.
shocker!! sad..
...The sky has lost it's color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away
I crawl up in the corner
To watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time you're comin' back...
Monday, December 06, 2004
` 11:24 PM
+I'm hanging from you, and I'll hold on if you want me to+
it's grad tonight. i'm depressed :( i can't believe i'm at home blogging when my peers and you are enjoying yourselves and taking in e atmosphere of graduation at Ritz. bloody hell. ok, at least my whole class isn't there. heh. what ever happened to our plan to have our own graduation party thingy?! sigh sigh sigh sigh. fahmi and peishan is prom king and queen respectively!! first-hand info from huimin :)
e afternoon was spent cooing and AWWW-ing over Paw, Lala and Nemo and watching Stepford Wives at wanni's place! dumb movie, i must say. haha. but i love e dresses e women wore at e last part of e show! haha.
and yes, i haven't packed my room yet. urh!
zoo pics!! :)
...If you only knew
What I went through just to get to you
I'm hanging from you
And I'll hold on if you want me to...
Sunday, December 05, 2004
` 6:14 PM
+When the torch is passed, only dreams will last, that are shared by everyone...+
everyone wants to be taufik's wife. heh. which means i've got sly all to myself :) kl!! i love e duet version of I Dream on your blog :)
my bro, shiqi and i have decided to write in to e straits times forum to complain how idiotic olinda is (haha ok like we will). HEH. sore loser!!! 900 votes for taufik? oh wow, that's no wonder why he won. ha. it's alright if she voted 900 times and kept quiet abt it, but she just had to brag about it to newspapers to tell everyone what a sore loser she is. yikes man. haha. oh yes not to mention leandra's 750 votes. hey if taufik knows about this, wouldn't he be damn sad? hmmm. it's like, 1650 votes in e bag already!
my mum's right. why am i so uptight and stressed over finding a job? i don't really need one, at least for e time being. hmmm.
was at expo just now and there was this really cute guy who had e same ringtone as me! haha. quite sissy ya.
here's a HUGE thank you to jamie and hazel for e blue album!!!! -beeeeg kiss- and yes it's really early. heh :)
Taufik Batisah's I Dream (hee kl paiseh yanked from your blog :))
in my mind, i can climb
all the mountains that surround me
my spirit's there, where eagles dare to fly
in my heart, there's a spark
that can light the world around me
an open door, where i am sure dreams are
it doesn't matter if i win
or the colour of my skin
'cos the race is all about
believing in yourself
cos i dream
i can run, like the wind
and be strong
when my heart just wants to give in
i dream
i can be, the hero that's in me
when i dream,
i dream
if there's a time, in your life
when the odds are so against you
there's no defeat, if all you keep is pride
first or last, slow or fast
there's a dignity that makes you
keep driving on, when world's have come apart
it doesn't matter rich or poor
or the things you've done before
cause the race is all about
believing in yourself
and i dream
i can run, like the wind
and be strong
when my heart just wants to give in
i dream
i can be, the hero that's in me
when i dream
i dream
of a moment
that forever will be golden
when the torch is passed
only dreams will last
that are shared by everyone
and i dream
i can run, like the wind
and be strong
when my heart just wants to give in
i dream
i can be, the hero that's in me
when i dream,
i dream.
Friday, December 03, 2004
` 11:42 PM
+I've become so numb, I can't feel you there+
i didn't know writing resumes and applying for jobs and registering through agencies can be SO taxing. BAH. and at e end of e day, if i don't get e jobs i applied for i really don't know what i'm going to do. urh.
anyhows, today was spent roaming around town with huimin and dodging 3457782 pple approaching us for surveys/donations/sales/dunno-what-else-already. i bought new strappy slippers and a new shoulder bag :) and yeah, Bridget Jones was funny and really sweet as well, but it lacked sth somehow, no idea what. hmm. haha we met a grand total of 20 tjcians! and i saw xiaoling! she's like, so pretty now. haha.
qin saw sly at CS!!! like not jealous again. sigh. he was with maia!
@^#%@*#&$%^!!!
did i mention that i'm STILL in love with numb/encore? hee :)
i'm starting to miss you and e times we had :(
Thursday, December 02, 2004
` 12:28 AM
+Tell me who wants to look back on their yrs and wonder where those yrs have gone+
sg idol ended with a beeeg bang!! no more looking forward to thursdays and fridays, no more maniac screaming, no more procrastinating on whether to go for idol rdshows or not, no more wasting money voting, no more going crazy over fellow Singaporeans for a change. SIGH. haha and i lied, cos today i ended up voting for sly after all. my brother too! cos sly totally shone when he sang I Dream!! hehe. and that Sylvester the cat stuff toy moving around behind dick lee was SO comical! haha. taufik truly deserves to win, but hey, sly ain't that bad alright. hee.
yay to the two of them :D
and yes, went for e hair treatment today and i so regret not relaxing my hair instead. cos shiqi relaxed her hair and it was just 10 dollars more than my treatment plus haircut! am so gek right now, cos i can't see any difference whatsoever with my hair. GRRR. and yup i'm back with my shoulder-length, curling-up-at-the-ends hair. back to square one, in other words. whatever.
Ronan Keating's I Hope You Dance (read the lyrics!)
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
God forbid love ever leaves you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance...
I hope you dance,
I hope you dance...
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking,
Loving might be a mistake but it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance...
Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
and wonder where those years have gone
I hope you dance,
I hope you dance...
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
and wonder where those years have gone...
I hope you dance,
I hope you dance...