Sunday, January 30, 2005
` 1:38 AM
+Broken, this fragile thing now, and i can't pick up the pieces+
hahaha went chinatown again last night. somehow the feeling was very different from that nice soaking-in-the-cny-atmosphere-although-it's-hot-like-shit feeling i had when i went there last friday. haha. but still, i treasure every moment spent with friends i don't get to see everyday :) went kbox and took turns screaming into the mike. and laughing at the guys in the next room. haha that was funny! :)
work's getting more and more enjoyable each day! :D i STILL dunno if my contract's gonna be extended or not (my supposed last day is monday! dowan!! -whines-) haha i'm finally doing sth other than staring at the computer screen. yay! walk here walk there, sort this sort that, photocopy this photocopy that, staple this staple that, oh yes, and occassionally going to chunyan's desk to gossip. heh!
oh michelle recieved a bouquet of lovely champagne roses and pineapple tarts from a secret admirer! haha so exciting :) kinda reminded me of aya and her freaky secret admirer back in school. haha.
and lee's flirting skills are incredibly impressive. ha. super funny :) oh ya do i really look very blur?! he kept telling me he's damn scared i do sth wrongly and cause the company to collapse and all that crap cos i look damn blur. fine. grrr!! he keeps bullying me! where's my benben when i need him?! ha. ok don't mind me.
it's been a long time... :(
i love eminem's songs! i mean, those serious serious kinds like Mockingbird or Like Toy Soldiers etc, NOT those crappy ones like Just Lose It. ha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ql my lover!!!! k la since it's your birthday i let you choose between ohm and me! hahaha. oy stop bullying me already!! please target cel or someone else, thank you very much. heh :)
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up
And I give up
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one...
Saturday, January 22, 2005
` 11:35 PM
+Coming in with nothing, the only thing that saves is here inside+
To sum up the week:
At work:
1. i'm still staring at green figures on the computer screen 8 hours a day, 5 days a week :(
2. i'm still sneaking off to the S'pore River with chunyan everyday afternoon :)
3. i'm now known as Pebbles -dots- and i have Sandy, Rocky and Stony as family.
4. i've resorted to asking pple to accompany me to the Ladies because of the-guy-who-freaks-me-out.
5. i love lunches by the S'pore River!
6. it's fun waving to tourists as the water-taxis go pass us. ha.
7. the feeling of making new friends at work rocks :)
8. i dunno if my contract's gonna be extended or not. hope it is!!! if not i'll be back as The jobless slacker after 31 jan :(
At play:
1. Fish&co with the girls was fuuuun!! caught up with what everyone was doing and laughed ourselves silly :)
2. everybody who wants to buy hair dye pls go to Parkway Watsons and buy from weiqin the L'oreal salesperson!!! see i so nice help u advertise! nah actually it's the treat after ur double-bonus thingy i'm waiting for :D
3. roaming the streets of Chinatown till past midnight rocks! loves it :) haha the cny atmosphere in the air!
4. i don't feel like a high-voltage lightbulb when the 3 of us hang out together anymore :) haha.
5. i love Orchard at night :) oh. i think i mentioned this before.
6. Mark Mcgrath was HOT on ami :D anw i guess i'll be supporting Constantine the rocker if he gets into the finals and all. hee!
7. Jonathan and Victoria's out of the Amazing Race. YEEEESSSSSSS!!
8. i swear if a guy strums his guitar and sings Ryan Cabrera's 'True' to me, i think i'll just marry him :) hahaha now that's funny.
9. I MISS SCHOOL :(
Select your birth month and cross out whatever that doesn't apply :)
DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.
LOL :)
You can take it all away
I don't need it
Underneath, i'll still be the same
You can take it all away
I don't need it, it's not me
You can take it all, take it all away
I'll still be the same
Coming in with nothing, the only thing that saves is here inside...
-Ryan Cabrera's Take It All Away
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
` 10:56 PM
+I don't want another pretty face, I don't want just anyone to hold+
i love walking along Orchard at night :) minus disgusting perverts and smelly cigarette smoke, that is. haha. yay bought a white tank top for cny :) oh i just remembered i'm supposed to impose a shopping ban on myself cos i bought too much in the States, but heck. ha.
there's this guy in my office that scares the shit outta me sometimes. -shudders-
heard Larger Than Life on e radio this morning and it reminded me of school... orientation, mass dance, running man :( sigh. and fizzy. haha.
i absolutely LOVE four-day weeks :D the week goes by extra fast!!! and before you know it, it's gonna be the weekend again! yay!!
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
- Jesse McCartney
Saturday, January 15, 2005
` 1:03 AM
+Everytime you're near, everybody else seems far away+
thank goodness the weekend's here :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY huimin :D okie someone's nineteen already. pls grow up :) nah. i still want the same old childish, screamy, mad ohmy k. HA. yayy meeting up with all the nuts finally :)
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY jiel :D i dunno if u read my blog or not, but just wanna say i'm really glad to see you every morning at Raffles :) love u!!
oh i just remembered i had a bet with Lee that Liverpool's gonna win ManU. Liverpool BETTER win, or else i'm quite dead.
sigh Chunyan has changed depts :( she's under the wrath of Mrs Bitch, while i'm still under Dorothy. no more escapades to Boat Quay for us :( anws Mrs Bitch is this stupid woman who comes around to our dept at least twice everyday to scold Dorothy for the slightest reasons. irritating!! so what if she's higher in rank?!?! but it's really funny how our colleagues gossip abt her once she's gone. ha!
oh yes lee ryan's wanted by the police for the 4756926th time. -shakes head- apparently he refused to pay 600 bucks for some damage he caused to property or sth like that. sigh. but his photo's still pasted on my wall, nonetheless ;)
been having really wierd dreams nowadays. maybe it's because i just hung the dreamcatcher by my bed? creeps.
Hoobastank's Disappear (love this song!!!)
There's a pain that sleeps inside
It sleeps with just one eye
And awakens the moment that you're near
Though I try to look away
The pain it still remains
Only leaving when you're next to me
Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay
So I stand and look around
Distracted by the sounds
Of everyone and everything I see
And I search through every face
Without a single trace, of the person
The person that I need
Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay
Can you make them disappear?
Make them disappear
There's a pain that sleeps inside
Sleeps with just one eye
And awakens, the moment that you're near
And I search through every face
Without a single trace, of the person
The person that I need
Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
` 8:43 PM
+Don't really care about what happens to me, just wanna live...+
the boredom of my job is instantly perked up by "eating snake" with Chunyan and running off to Boat Quay in e middle of work, Lee's occassional singing wailing which is really comical at times, and the nice soft-rock songs playing from Michelle's pc :) and i SO love walking to the mrt station in e mornings! the nice fresh air and the cool breeze and the mist shrouding the trees in the distance :) hee! i'm starting to love my life again. haha.
whenever i see tj students i can't help but sigh and wish i'm still wearing those green uniforms. sigh. i miss school!! i wanna eat chicken stew with spaghetti, and mi fen and zi cai ji.. i wanna sit on the parade square in e mornings.. i wanna sleep in LT1.. i wanna play truth-and-truth in the library.. i wanna be surrounded by green green green again :( you never truly treasure school until you leave it... sigh.
You better play it safe
You never know what hard times will come your way
We say
Where we're coming from
We've already seen
The worst that this life can bring
Now we're expected everywhere that we go
All the things that they say
Yeah we already know
I just wanna live
Don't really care about the things that they say
Don't really care about what happens to me
Just wanna live...
- Good Charlotte
Sunday, January 09, 2005
` 4:50 PM
+I need a soldier, that ain't scared to stand up for me+
my job's alright, thank goodness :) my colleagues are really friendly, which is far from what i expected, cos i've always thought the working class doesn't give a damn about temp staff like us. haha. yep my "department within the department" consists of Dorothy our really sweet consultant, Davy who's SO patient with us i would've fainted if i was in her shoes teaching us all that stuff, Lee the livewire who's damn popular with the laydees [no idea why, considering the fact that he's SO Green Tea compared to my Lee (heh! if you know what i mean), and he's so tone-deaf but still sings at e top of his voice. but i like his pineapple sweets. ha], Raj who comes to the office super early and whose table i'm using, Mani who was on leave but came back on friday, Michelle the pretty mum, and Chun Yan my fellow temp colleague and new friend who goes ga-ga over Caucasian cuties and loves walking along the Singapore River like me!! haha. so it's kinda fun la, but the working part's super boring. bleh. just try staring at the computer screen full of green alphabets and numbers for 8 full hours, then u'll know what i mean. i think i'm going blind already. at least Chun Yan gets to sort files and stuff. sigh. oh yes, the office faces the Singapore River but too bad my table's not near the window. sigh.
ooh yes i met jiel at Raffles mrt on friday morning!!! i miss you loads!! :)
just watched Phantom of the Opera :) all that elaborate sets, songs, dances, costumes! music of the night :) loves it!
the tsunami memorial's on tv now in the living room. i think i'll just cry if i get out there and watch, so i'm staying in my room.
it's work again tmr... as much as i like it, i can't wait to stop working. sigh. i miss my slack lifestyle!! :(
I need a soldier
That ain't scared to stand up for me
Known to carry big things
If you know what I mean :) - Destiny's Child
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
` 10:02 PM
+first job in my life (excluding TIP, which was like, DUMB)+
am right now a temporary Filing Clerk at GE Money and work starts tmr! -faints- it came as a shocker man, to think i was planning to volunteer for Red Cross and all that. sigh. after signing the contract, went around shopping for office wear and ended up buying 2 tops and 3 pants in a span of like, half an hour. my goodness. i've never shopped so fast before in my life! haha. am kinda scared and apprehensive and excited at e same time. sigh. at least my fellow temp colleague seems nice (we spoke on e phone), so i hope everything goes well tmr. bleh! anws the company's located near kl's Maybank and the Esplanade!! yay :D haha.
welcome to the working world, ts.
SHUCKS.
Monday, January 03, 2005
` 8:38 PM
+Tell me why i've got to be the one to walk away+
food for thought: why're guys with the name benson always in band? i've heard of 3 bensons in band already! haha.
thinking of volunteering at Redcross to help in the packing of stuff to the victims and all. hmm at least i'm doing something and not sitting around being sad and not doing anything to help. i'd feel better if i did something :)
Ocean's Twelve is so funny!! haha. i love seh movies which are funny! hahaha. Brad Pitt's fat! but good-looking. heh. yayy Matt Damon :)
I look away when he holds you
For I'm afraid that I might find
The look in your eyes
That I see when you were mine
So tell me why I've got to be
The one to walk away
And leave you there in someone else's arms - Jay Sean
Sunday, January 02, 2005
` 3:09 PM
+Sometimes i wish someone out there will find me, till then i walk alone+
it's just so saddening to go on reading the papers about the stories of victims of the tsunami disaster and seeing how the death toll continues to rise every single day. all the problems around me seem so trivial right now. sigh.
peace be with the victims and their families... may the world overcome this and may 2005 be a better year for all of us.
updated holiday pics are up.
i love the sound of rain :)
Greenday's Boulevard of Broken Dreams
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I walk alone
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I walk alone
Saturday, January 01, 2005
` 11:53 PM
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Pictures :) speak a thousand words...
btw happy new year everyone :)